14 years ago I was in the hospital patiently waiting for my little Kayla to arrive. I was a young girl who didn’t know how to take care of a baby of my own. I was scared, nervous, I didn’t know what my life was going to become.
I knew my parents were disappointed at me for getting pregnant so young. I was disappointed as well (at myself). I had my life planned out already. I was going to college right after high school, and I was going to pursue my dance career no matter what it took.
My life changed forever and sure, I wasn’t ready but I HAD to get ready.
I’ve had my ups and downs, I struggled financially, emotionally, and in every other way possible.
It felt so defeated but I knew I had to be strong and continue to try and do the best I can. It was hard to be a single mom and at such a young age.
But Kayla has taught me so much about being a mom, about life and about myself. The older she gets, the more I understand my mom. When I was being a brat with her she would tell me that one day I would regret it and that one day my kids were going to do it to me and then I’d understand her.
Well, as I mentioned… everyday I understand my mom more and more. I haven’t told her this but I do. Kayla is such a sweet girl, and even though we now have different personalities I see so much of me in her. I was just like her as a teenager physically and personality wise.
I’m glad that I am able to experience being a mother there’s nothing more beautiful in the world. She is the best part of me and the reason why I work so hard. She inspires me to be better to want more so I can give her more.
Today is her 14th birthday and I can’t wait for her to get back from school so I can spoil her. She definitely deserves it for being such a sweet girl. I’m so proud to be her mom and grateful that god gave me the blessing of being a mother.